the 'i remember' game

i'm noticing that i remember most clearly the "firsts"...

i remember cathy crying in harvard square in may 98 when she was to take he train back to natick, and i was to go and stay with alecia in somerville.

staying with lori and alecia at their house when missy was out of town praying that i would find a place before "missy" came home. i had to be out of their house on sunday because missy would "freak out" if i was there any longer. i lived in fear of missy.

i remember getting the call from gillian asking me to be her roommate at the 11th hour after crying through hope floats in the theater that afternoon.

i remember talking to lori at night and her saying that she smelled gas... then calling lori after work the next day and her not being there, so i walked over to her house and she was still not there, but she could have been dead, so i climbed through the front window only to find she wasn't there.

i remember having big long talks with alecia and her mom about my debt problem on the front steps of their school street apartment while eating falafels from moodys falafel palace.

i remember going with alecia and her mom to the fourth of july on the esplanade in july of 98. i offered to buy a sprite from a family and they said no. we walked from the esplanade to porter square that night.

i remember kerri and i walking to davis square night after night to go to the joshua tree (the JT).

i remember filing above the MIT bookstore and going down there on my lunch break and picking out new books to read on the train.

i remember going out for drinks after work above the bookstore at 'characters'.

i remember laughing with elizabeth about peoples names as we filed away their third party medical forms.

i remember making my mom and dad meet me at the joshua tree and then bringing home barry and the two of us sleeping on the futon in the sunroom while my parents slept in my bedroom.

i remember stealing away to fax my resume to a bunch of places on the DL form the job above the bookstore.

i remember going to the interview at KB. a girl named heather picked me up from the stonybrook t-stop. there were cats at the interview.

i remember having a job offer later the same day i interviewed.

i remember going on a spirit of boston party for the filing job and wearing my HUGE leg jeans and my wooden platform shoes and walking from south station to the world trade center and after that night losing feeling in my feet from having my shoes tied too tight and thinking i had diabetes. and having to call cath in colorado to make sure i didn't...

more to come...